I know I know I KNOW! We've all heard this verse...at least I'm assuming. God gave my mom this verse when she was pregnant with me and didn't know it. She longed for a baby girl and after an ectopic pregnancy, the doctors told her it wasn't possible. God had other plans. Here I am. Healthy as can be. This verse is MY verse because it was how I came into existence. Needless to say, I've heard this verse a lot, from my mom, when she reminds me that I am meant to be here.
I always thought this verse meant that God would give us our fleshly desires. For example, I want to win the lottery. God will allow this to happen because it is a desire of my heart. FALSE. That is not what that verse means.
A few weeks ago, I had a very random desire enter my heart (I promise I will share what it was at a later date). It seemed like out of no where I started to desire this one thing. It was a little strange so I talked to God about it. In the midst of cleaning and praying and telling God I was a little confused of this new desire, He said to me, "Gina, I put that desire there." My repsonse: "HUH????? Say what now? You what?" (why am I always so dumb when it comes to conversing with God. I'm always so clueless to the most obvious things. I feel like God's always like, "Cmon Gina, this isn't rocket science").
After many questions, God gave me Psalm 37:4, but He revealed to me that it doesn't mean He will give us our fleshly desires (like the lottery or a mansion). He revealed that He actually puts the appropriate desires in our hearts, for His purpose, for His glory. Insert mind blown.
God's GIVES us our desires. He puts the desire in there. I imagine because we don't really know what we want like God knows (I'm guessing).
So, I learned something new. Pretty cool. So now that I have this new desire, I've been praying that God would reveal more to me. And on Sunday He did. Again, I was praying about this desire and in the midst of beautiful worship at Authentic, God said, "Gina, I gave you that desire." Of course, I asked God to be more specific and of course He told me to trust Him.
I'm not really sure why God put this desire in my heart, but it is very neat to see God doing something in my life. It has made me realize how in control I'm not and how God controls even the littlest things like my desires.
Thanking God for reminding me He's still very real in my life. Feeling blessed having Him as my Father. Thanking Him for choosing me to reveal things to and to use me for His glory. What an honor!
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