Thursday, May 24, 2018

Can it really be?

Memorial Day weekend has officially (unofficially) started. My husband decided to take off tomorrow (the Friday before Memorial Day) after a long three weeks of standardized testing and we decided to keep my oldest home since it's going to be an awesome beach day. Tomorrow we'll all head to the beach for a family beach day! I'm looking forward to it.

I can't believe there are only 18 more days of school left! Only three full weeks left and summer is here! I remember last year being so ready for summer and being super emotional about how my son was graduating kindergarten. I feel a little different this year. I'm still so ready for summer, but I am not as emotional about my son graduating first grade. In fact, I am so extremely happy about it. This year was tough and we are all ready for it to be over.

The past few weeks have been bombarded with baseball games, birthday parties, BBQs, and lots of play time outside. It's been awesome! Finally the warmer weather is here and we are loving it! The boys are ready for summer and my oldest is ready to be done with school work.

While I am so excited for summer and don't seem to be emotional about having an almost second grader, I am emotional about my middle guy heading to kindergarten in September. All year I wanted to put him in pre-school, but it kept not working out. And I'm thankful it didn't. Our family was plagued with so much sickness that it would have been a waste of money since my kids were sick every other week. But now I'm glad it didn't work out because I would have missed him. And as much as I wanted him to go to school, now I'm dreading it.

My middle guy is definitely ready. He's been wanting to go to school since he's watched his brother go for two years. He has his backpack and lunch box and he is so ready. If I told him he could go to school tomorrow, he'd pack up his favorite stuffed Mickey, some snacks, and head off to school like a big man. I'm not ready for him to leave me. I'm not ready to only have one home. Oh it'll be weird. Oh my heart will ache. Oh September, come slowly.

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

March 2018

ots only a few short days before my oldest sons seventh birthday. I can’t believe he’s going to be seven! My heart.

This year has been tough. Caleb hasn’t enjoyed school as much as last year. He says it’s too much work, but I think it’s more then that. None of his friends from last year are in his class and he’s had a hard time adjusting to a new teacher. Sending him to school knowing he doesn’t want to be there has been very difficult. There are some days he’s ok with going, like when there’s a holiday party, but most weeks when there’s nothing to look forward to, he always asks to stay home.

This has been hard on my mamas heart. Part of me what’s to keep him home but part of me wants him to learn and understand sometimes we have to do things we don’t want to. Regardless, it’s been a tough year, his birthday is coming up, and we are all counting down the days until summer.

Thinking about this time last year and I remember how Caleb was starting to get sick of school.  His teacher had gone out on maternity leave and the log term substitute took over. Caleb had a hard time adjusting to a new teacher after he had spent most of the year with his normal teacher. He never really did adjust and by this time last year I could tell he was over school. Luckily with his birthday and a week long spring break, Caleb got the rest he needed to push through April, but come May, he was ready to be done. And I felt the same.

I feel the same way this year. It was around this time I was ready for summer and to have my son back with me every day all day. Spring break was so very welcomed and we enjoyed the time together as a family. Caleb and Hannies birthdays along with Easter were a great distraction through the month of April, but come May we were ready for long beach days.

Tomorrow is calebs class party and Thursday is a half day. Friday starts spring break and I’m hoping we can spend time together as a family for all of it. I know with Hannies birthday coming up soon, April will fly by and we’ll be in May. May was the toughest month so I’m preparing myself now. It seems forever long when you’re just so done with school.

I’m ready for summer. It’s been cold too long this march. I’m ready for the beach, rainy days inside baking and playing with my three kids, pool days, bike rides, ice cream, and having daddy home longer in the mornings and earlier in the evenings. We had such a great time last summer and I can’t wait to do it again.

While I’m ready to have my oldest home with us 24/7, I’m dreading that last day of school because it won’t be long after that last day of school that the first day of school will come again and I can’t imagine having a second grader. Not only that, my middle guy will be entering kindergarten in September. I’ll have two kids in school. For the first time in five and a half years, I’ll be home with only one kid. I’m not ready for it.